What Direction Now? Life at the intersection…

Captain Charisma

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For a second, I’m suspended in their stares, they seek to peer under my skin to glimpse the secret code to the tower door—psst, it’s probably up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, b, a—start now the round of close inspection, load up all the questions—how tall…what size…

Surrounded by nagging flies, the most familiar bag of sounds coming from foreign voices down below, cue the slow, boring transition from initial awe to indecision, as the six-foot-ten-size-eighteen is heard, the true sense of those words eventually catches on, and I’m measure mentally.

But by now I’m spent attentionally, uninterested in incredulity, having heard until my ears are bleeding the needless, unsurprising wisecracks which always come stumbling out after that, in fact, let me save us some trouble now and answer before you ask (just relax, sit back and really listen):

Yes, my mom is tall; no, I was not at all destined for the NFL; no, I won’t soon wrestle with ‘Taker at Hell in a Cell; and—nestle up close for this one so you can hear clearly—whatever I choose to do in life will likely have little to do with this body you see, whatever I choose to do will not emphasize how high my head rises above the ground, in the end, whatever I choose to do will never depend on you profound opinions, founded in the past ten seconds since you so delightfully decided to sidle up next to me, smiling expectantly while expounding my capabilities, upstaging my dreams, up-selling my potential, but by this time, I no longer hear talking, merely you, with sprouting wings, just buzzing out stock and silly stagnant sounds…
They would not even have suspected it…
@c

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What Direction Now? Life at the intersection…

About Andrew.

Andrew Cartwright grew up in Indianapolis, IN, but has lived over the years in such places as Denver, CO; Fairfax, VA; and Rivne, Ukraine. He is a former nonfiction editor for both Indiana Review and phoebe; he has also worked for the intersectional feminist journal, So To Speak, and the national literary magazine, Electric Literature. His work has appeared in The Normal School Online, Copper Nickel, Esquire Ukraine, Literary Hub, and Word Riot.

For more information about me and links to other writing, visit my author page at cartwriter.com

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